Why must you be such a fucking hypocrite?
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fuck this shit. god fucking damnit. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. why? why did you have to betray me? what the fucking hell? god fucking damn everything. fuck. just, fuck. damn. I don’t even know what else to say but fuck this shit. If you actually went where i think you went, all of my respect for you will be gone and i’ll most definitely not make this mistake again.
Two words. Holy. Shit.
That was possibly one of the most awesome things i have ever witnessed irl.
Yea so in case you didn’t know, i went to the city today with paco’s family to go see the JYP powerhouse tour. At first i didn’t want to go because the tickets were soooo expensive, but after she bought 5 tickets and after Rose realized that she couldn’t go, paco took me along! <3 forever paco!
Kay. Now i have an awesome Wonder Girls T-Shirt as well as a poster so now i can be awesome in WG swag and stuff. Paco also has matching stuff so that’s pretty cool. She also got a JYP entertainment laptop case because it came with a signed 2PM cd. We got horace the signed So Hot CD becuase they ran out of signed Nobody CDs. I could’ve got it, but i hesitated and ran out as i was deciding what to get. Oh well, no use in regretting it.
So the concert itself was good. I didn’t expect the girls to perform so many songs and have 3 different stages. They performed a total of about 10 songs, the popular ones like So Hot, Tell Me, and Nobody, and also others like Ee Ba Bo, Irony, Saying that I Love You, and others. All of the performances were good, except the mic volume was meh for a lot of it. I think it’s only because there was so much intense bass that it was hard to concentrate on their voices. So Hee was as young and cute as ever and still can’t sing, but it doesn’t matter because she is Ahn So Heeeeee. Sun Mi is ridiculously anorexic. I never noticed how skinny she was in any videos, but once i saw her, she was almost cathay skinny. The only thing is that her face is super round, so it’s hard to notice her skinniness. Yeeun is still very…. Yeeun. It’s hard to describe if she was any different. Oh, right. All of the WG’s english wasn’t the best, especially So Hee who failed in the engrish deparment many many times, but it was funny so w/e. Sun Ye still looks like her eyes are half closed all of the time. Yoobin was just amazing. She’s back to her normal self in terms of physique and is an amazing rapper/singer. The remixed Nobody rap was cool and i didn’t expect the Yoobin dance break during tell me, so that was nice too. Oh Yoobin, how you excite me so.
Other people who were performed were J Lim, some Korean solo artist, 2PM, crazy 7 person korean boy group, and JYP himself. J Lim and 2PM only performed their top songs, but 2PM did the Nobody tango dance version with WG. JYP is like in his late 30’s and is still an awesome singer and dancer. I only recognized a few of his songs, but all of them were performed really well. The JYP part of the concert was done in a weird way which worked really well. He spoke to the audience as one person as if he was taking her on a date. Both he and her have mates, but they spent one night together. All of his songs were mixed into the story of going to dinner, clubbing, and finally home into the bed. During the bed scene, he picked a girl from the audience and tied her to a bed onstage. Then the bed rose up on one pivot, kind of like a dump truck so that everyone could see what was going on. That part of the performance was rather wtf, lol, and scandalous at the same time. It was goo, though. He did his Hammer dance which is one of the blackest dances i have ever seen. JYP is just such a good dancer. Search up JYP hammer dance on youtube to see for yourself.
Lol i just remembered that after the WG did nobody for the second time, they showed on screen a bunch of youtubers who did nobody and posted it. They brought a lot of them to the concert, including the white guy who makes really stiff movements when dancing and tries to cover korean songs, but fails pretty badly.
Holy moly there were a lot of korean people. While in line to get in, we were approached by various korean people talking to us in korean. We were like errrrr no idea what you were saying and they went along on. It was fun playing the who does this asian look like game. I think paco won because she got so many good ones. So, we saw Dave lyu, caroline dong, brian yeh, a bunch of the chuangs, and other azns. The korean fob fashion was not lacking as there were crazy shirts and hair styles all over the place. Paco and I decided that we need to learn korean ASAP so that we can go to korea next year, be able to speak fluent korean, and go see a BB and WG concert there.
So all in all, my life is complete for a while. I don’t think anything will be able to top the greatness of the JYP Powerhouse concert. Again, thanks so much Paco. <3.
Tons of fun.
It came in the mail last thursday which makes it about 50 days after i won on gamevance. Holy shit it took a long time, but it was well worth it. I would’ve got it on Wednesday but I wasn’t home to sign for it so i had to leave the slip for the next day.
Anyways, it is just really really awesome. Jailbreaking it was not difficult and not too risky, so i don’t know why stan is complaining about it so much. Get tons of free apps and other stuff. Intense theme-ing is always fun, like changing keyboards to match the mac book air and making the safari icon be a green block smiley with a safari hat on it. I thought Dactyl was the greatest game on the iTouch, but i was sorely mistaken. The large amount of games availble is just insane and there are tons of good choices ranging from racing games to tower defense to other interesting ones like a platformer with no platforms and katamari damacy. Cooking Mama was ported too which is pretty awesome. Although there are a shit load of games for the iTouch, it has not released anything to be a formidable opponent to the DS as a gaming system.
The ipod part of the iTouch is nothing new. The video is pretty good and actually plays videos at a higher framerate than my computer so that’s a plus. All i have on there right now is a bunch of korean MVs and YGO abridged, so i need to get some more stuff asap. Too much stuff is a prob though b/c it’s only the 8GB model. Each “High Quality” 5 min video, 640×480 at 30fps and 192 kbit sound, is about 50-70 mb which makes it a problem to store a lot of videos on it. It’s okay though b/c i can just cycle videos if i have to i guess.
Jaadu VNC is one of the coolest things ever. Full keyboard and mouse control of my computer from my iTouch is something i didn’t think was possible, but it works, and has a pretty fast response time. I can even watch youtube videos through the it, but the screen refresh rate is 300ms so it’s not a good idea and there 32 bit color support so it makes the colors look a bit weird. It does support multiple displays so that’s good too because i use two.
K anyways that’s enough of that for now. Time to go work on all of this shit hw that is suddenly piled on us by whitten b/c she is dumb as hell.
Not that i got objected or anything. It is a reference to Phoenix Wright Ace Attorney. Why you ask? Because i’m going to court lol.
Fuck that shit. Not like they are important anyways.
So I messed up pretty badly on the stat test and that really sucked. Cut first period drama to study for it too. I guess if you study too much, you forget what you memorized, or, in my case, don’t pay attention to any of the directions even if they were told 3 times. Fuck statistics. Well, statistics are okay, but fuck AP statistics in Holmdel High School. It’s complete shit.
As is Drama. I have to write some one page monologue shit on a picture i find in a magazine. I have to put myself in that character and write whatever comes to mind. I don’t know how this is supposed to stir my creative juices, but all i know is that it isn’t working too well.
That’s all for now. Post more later b/c i have a shit load of stuff to do. Going to get raped by quarter finals physics league.
I can deal with that. It is my fault. It’s always greg’s fault. Almost always, anyways.
Don’t want to deal with 3 tests tomorrow which are going to suck. I know nothing of the taxonomy and nomenclature and evolutionary relations of animals. I don’t know when to use what formula in stat or how to interpret certain questions. And i haven’t done Calc hw voluntarily (not checked) since…. December. I’m pretty much screwed. But hey, at least there is a field trip and AMC this week which will throw off more of the potential work we would’ve had.
I heard it wasn’t so bad.
Got the car taken away already because me andmy stupidity forgot to call my dad as soon as i got to school. Not sure whens the next time i’ll be able to drive. Maybe never. What the fuck ever. Nothing i do will make the punishment lighter. I do deserve it though because i tried to lie to my dad about why i didn’t call. Always get caught in the middle of the lie. Don’t understand why i never learn. Talking to him about that failure and many other mistakes got me thinking about a lot of stuff. Got me really down thinking about the same depressing thinking about the future and friends and stuff as before. To the point where i was putting away the dishes and went to put away the knife and hesitated for a second. I am really fucked up.
Fuck it. I don’t care anymore. I have to take the bus in the morning now which i haven’t for like 2 years, so i don’t think i’ll be able to wake up for it. I guess i’ll just have to stay awake for the rest of the night instead. This way i can’t oversleep. If Sam can do it, i might as well give it a shot.
They aren’t the most fun, but they do give us a break from all of the hw and other shit we have to do. Snow day today was pretty awesome by extending that break over to next week. Now I get the weekend to study Calc. Woo. Don’t really want to study stat right now because it’s boring as hell. Just wrote a “2 page paper” on Yoga, essentially a paraphrased wiki article with lots of bs thrown in. Might fail bio b/c of the massive amounts of stuff that’s going to be on the test. Physics won’t be too bad i hope. Paco said it wasn’t too bad for her and she only studied for a short amount of time, so I should be okay. Hopefully. Not looking foward to English. Not like i look foward to English ever, but now i definitely don’t want to take the full of BS midterm.
w/e.
What’s the point? We live, we work, we die. 10 years later, we are forgotten unless we cured cancer or something. So what’s the point of continuing with life?
I live to have fun, to be successful, to be useful. So why do i deal with all of this shit? I just don’t want to deal with it anymore. The cost of having fun doesn’t feel like it’s balancing out all of the stress and work I have to do. It’s fucking senior year, and even though i’m completely done with apps, i feel the same amount of stress as before. I push myself for reasons unknown and my goals are higher than ever. In the past, I was okay with getting B’s. Well, not okay, but I wasn’t killing myself over it, so i really don’t know why i care so much now. It’s not like doing well in school now will do anything for my future. So why do i care?
Friends? Friends are fun and do help poke a hole through all of the shit we deal with everyday. I’m not saying that my friends have become worse or anything, but more like i’ve become a worse friend. I feel more selfish and more annoying than ever, or maybe it’s just that i’ve always been this bad and i’ve just come to that realization. My friends don’t deserve to deal with this shit, yet they still do and i guess it’s just because they don’t want to be mean and just reject and block me out. Thanks, I guess.
College? College is a new beginning in a way and i’m looking forward to it. Going to Brown this summer has shown me that you can change yourself however much you want and nobody will know your true self. You can leave your shit past behind and start anew. I’d like to go to college and be the way i am now, but i don’t think that that is going to happen. I’ll eventually just conform to whatever group that interests me and chill with them, keeping to myself whatever they might see as fucked up or stupid. It’s not exactly being true to oneself, but it doesn’t seem like it’d be much different than what i’m doing now, right? I mean, i am completely honest and true to a few friends, but what about the rest? What’s the point of having those other friends if you aren’t going be yourself around them?
I don’t mean to sound suicidal or anything in asking what’s the point of life, but what is the point? Looking at the big picture, we will live for around 80 years or so, 100 if we are lucky, and the history of man is only about 2000 years old. Earth has been here for like 4.6 billion years. We are going to be in a nuclear war in very, very soon which will initiate a pretty big change the world. So what’s the point if i’m not going to do something great for the world or help out a fellow human being? What’s the point of living now if all will be for naught?
I’m way too depressed. Don’t even know why.
So as we left the school and headed towards the intersection of crawfords corner rd and longstreet, A huge salt spreader snow mover truck rams into the front right wheel and the door. After we got hit, the back of the bus got pushed into another car I think. No one got hurt or anything, but it was quite an interesting experience.
Changa, Karl, and I were just talking about dota and telling Changa to 1v1 Karl in dota asap. Right after Changa was like noooooooooooo, I flew off of my chair and heard a sound that kinda sounded like an aluminum can getting crushed, except it was a lot louder. I fell off of my chair after rocking foward and backwards and Changa bounced off of the seats. It was most definitely Changa’s fault that we got hit. The dota gods got angry with Changa for not 1v1-ing Karl.
Throughout the whole waiting for a new bus and stuff, me and Karl were like OMG baby Changa are you okay? Changa is quite the trooper and i am quite proud of him.
Oh btw total LOLOLOLOL when the cop was getting everyone’s name. He asked me for my info and I said, “Gregory Cheng spelled C-h-e-n-g.” After giving the rest of the info he went to Changa right behind me and Changa said, “Allen Chang,” and the cop goes, “Oh, you two are brothers?” lulz.
So the whole experience leaves the lesson of don’t fucking run red lights when you see bright yellow school buses.
